Been a while.

I like how no one reads this. im hoping. gives me a chance to vent my frustrations.

been two days. since i found out. yeah, im alive. but there is so much angst inside me. cant believe anything you say. even if you say you love me.

so many un-answered questions.

so little time.

so little confidence.

so little happiness.

I know and i will take all the time i need. to get over this, to be able to face you and face her. to be able to spend time alone with you. to spend time with your friends.

i hope you will wait. if you dont, i really dont know what to say.